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Sunday, December 30, 2007

Xmas Celebration @ ECP

Thank goodness it never rained on xmas eve! Actually we had been kinda lucky as it had been raining continuously in the past few weeks. But I insisted on not having any contingent plans ( the truth was I had none as the pit was already booked). Anyway, to have a strong fate that it would not rain seem to work well.

Everything went fairly well except that we had a tough time trying to get the fire burning. Lesson learnt => Dun save on cheap fire starters and dun buy NTUC charcoal. We bought a cambodian brand fire starters that cost about 90cents. We used up the whole box ( 20 fire starters) and yet the fire was not burning well. No choice but got to buy a new box at ECP which cost $3! Ok, now the fire starters seem to be working. Alas! It was the charcoal this time. I suspect the charcoal was damp or sth, else it just dun turn white. No choice but got to buy charcoal and another box of fire starters. So dubz... We ended up buying 3 box of fire starters, used 80 fire starters and 7kg charcoal to get the pit burning.... And that was like 2-3 hours laters...

Finally, we can bbq!! This was one of the proud experiment that we did -> Skewer with white button mushroom, pork, capsicum and pineapple. Wanted to have satay but it kinda expensive to buy from wholesale ( as they sold in bulk of 50) and too troublesome to do it ourselves, so the idea of having skewers seem so much simpler. Had tried to marinate meat with beer, pumpkin with cheese, potato with cheese... but didnt turn out too well tot... =p

Guess what? This was made up of letter spelt out using sparklers. The trick was to repeat the stroke of each letter forward and backward fast, while the camera person tried to take as many shots as possible to capture the best shot. Thanks to CY, the letters had been merged to spell out Merry Xmas!

Love made of sparklers

Our group photo

JW & Me

The Boys -> Hmm.. grew fatter over the years man...

The girls -> Still as slim!

flew into your heart at [11:46 PM]

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Saturday, December 22, 2007

Nagging, nagging and more nagging

The whole day at home, mum kept nagging about sister, jie fu, about them dunno how to take care of the kid... Dun understand why cant she just scold them straight in the face for all she wants? She will just complain about them to me and dad -_-"

The only topic that we can talk about now is all about them... No.. in fact, not we talking... It's mum nagging, and I just shut up and try to find something to do... Cant even watch vcd in peace ( damn laptop dunno why cannot play the vcd and so I got to use the dvd player in the living room) .

In fact, going to work is much enjoyable than staying at home nowadays. Taking leave to stay home is a BIG mistake. Either mum will nag or niece will come disturb.

Seriously, I dun like kid ANYMORE. Sometime they are cute, but most of the time they are nuisance.

So dun give birth until you are truely ready to take up the responsibilities and not expecting that there will always be someone helping you!

flew into your heart at [4:39 PM]

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Wednesday, December 05, 2007

Scoliosis

Went to pilates lesson today again. Today, instructor told me my spine problem quite obvious, and advise me to go see doctor to know how bad it is, i.e the curvature degree.

Sickening.

I always choose to ignore the fact that I'm suffering scoliosis.

I still remembered the time in Pri 6 when I was diagnosed with it. I got to go NUH regularly for checkup and X-rays. Dint they say too much X-rays is bad for the body? Well, I cant remember how many X-rays I did.

As my condition was not the worst case yet, I dint have to go for operation at that time. But then it dint belong to the minor case neither. So, I need to wear those ugly body brace to prevent the curves from getting worse. I cried when I first put it on. I asked my dad why I need it? I was standing in one of the hospital room. A big white cold room, while my dad put the "body mould" on me for the first time. It made me uncomfortable. It made body movement difficult. And the thing was, ya got to tighten it as much as possible for it to be effective. Imagine a plastic mould sticking to your skin, how would ya feel?

Every consultation, I got to wait for long time at NUH for my turn. Took the X-ray then waited again to see doctor. Doctor will then measure here and there to tell me whether it got worse. The same thing repeated itself for every visit. How much money spent? God knows.

I was still a 12-13 yrs old ger at that time. Yet everytime at home, I would need to put the stupid thing on. In fact, I should wear it all time, eating, schooling & sleeping except when bathing. But I just cant make myself wearing THAT to school. No way!

Think this went on for at least 2 or 3 years. Then I stopped going to see Doctor. So I havent been a obedient patient. I never follow instruction to put it on all the time. I stopped the consultations prematurely.

So perhaps my height is also partly of the problem. At the puberty age, I oreadi got this problem. In fact, I wont wan my spine to grow longer. Coz either it could mean shooting upwards or, it meant that my curvature is getting worse, having a longer spine to make a bigger "S".

It seem pointless. I feel perfectly alright. Maybe at times, my right side bra strap will just keep slipping off. But that's alright, I can just ajust the length. And I just have to be more hardworking to swim more often. Yes, swimming will help in the posture.

Seriously, I dunno whether it get worse. It has been 10 years since. My bones should have stopped growing by now. But deep down, it will always be something that bothers me. I can see myself in the mirror and know that I'm not normal normal. But what else can I do? I worry that if I go find a Doctor now, he will tell me my condition get worse. Then how? Operation? I really dun wan to do it. Hence, I allow status quo for so long. Ya, it's called risk acceptance. Knowing a risk and its threats, yet choose to accept it without doing anything.

Now and then, I see old ladies with hump and crooked back ( tiled one side), I worry I would become like that in the future. You know, it just a dilemma. I know if dun see a doctor, I will always be worrying, conscious about my posture and everything. But if I see a doctor, I worry of the possibilities that I got to face.

Now, I cant go to my parents and expect them to solve it for me. I wish they could.

I dunno what to do now. To find a Doctor? Where to find?

Today I actually alighted at a wrong bus-stop and walked one bus-stop distance home. That show how disturbing this was.

Maybe, I shouldnt join the pilates lesson in the first place ...

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