Sunday, April 20, 2008
I dun think it's a comment made at that instance.. Have I been "teaching" or "guiding" you so much that unknowingly, you have such a thought growing in you.
The sad part is why does that thought ever arise in you? Why did you think that I would think that you are stupid?
Is our understand of each other not indepth enuff, that we have negative thoughts of each other?
If we trust each other well enough, we would not have such negative thoughts at all. Even in event of uncertainty from the words that are spoken, we would have stand in each other's shoes and try to appreciate what is the real intention. I always thought that we are so comfortable with each other, that words need not be filtered.
You have said I'm picky. Maybe I am to you. But I dunno myself when did I ever demonstrate that to you. Have I picked on you unknowingly?
My blindness or wat? I have tried to consider your feelings when I made comments. But in event of simply chit chat, I thought that it was not required. Was my efforts not good enuff? It seemed to be the case.
I dun like what have happened, but I cant ask further. Coz you would likely say I try to rebut or defend myself everytime.
Human relationship is a profound theory that I dun seem to get it at all. Sometime I made comments that you have big tummy, yet you are jovial abt it. Now I just asking simple questions with no personal comments, yet you felt hurt.
I'm hurt too.
flew into your heart at [3:22 PM]
Sunday, February 03, 2008
Yes, I understand your good intention. Yes, logically it was best to learn the right skills from the start from a trained coach. I noe ya trying to be nice to me this 2 days. And I dunno wat can ya do to make me feel better neither. Coz the " damage" was done. Time cannot reversed. Words cannot erased. The unhappiness and bitterness had already seeped in. I always counsel other ppl. So all those positive phrases I know better. And because I kept using them on other ppl, they dun really work for me. But I know I would " recover" after tue, and in any case, there's still CYN celebration.. lots of festive mood.. Till then, I dun understand why I have to feel bitter myself. Call me devil, but I aint angel, I do hope it rains on tuesday.
I cant believe I was typing this in pitch dark except only with the dim light from the laptop screen.
Okay, I admit I wanted to learn tennis long ago. But somehow timing, pricing etc dun allow me to do so. I tot ya know. And I was hoping that ya say sth like " Nvm, I teach you", " Nvm, we just go and play for fun" . Instead, ya told me it was better to learn under a coach. It was like pouring a cold bucket, no.. a bathtub, of water on me.
But, it was just nice to do a sport together? Maybe I would still go and learn from a coach if I decided the investment would be worthwhile..... after a game or two with ya?
And I was never good with ball games. Whenever there was a ball game in the group, I was always been left out unintentionally because I dun have much ball sense. Obviously, if I was holding the ball, I'll pass it to someone who will catch it, rather than someone who will drop it. So I dun blame anyone. Ya dint realise because ya were good in all ball games, so ya dint realise the difficulties of me trying to catch up.
flew into your heart at [1:55 AM]
Friday, February 01, 2008
Hey com'on! This was just a game for 2 boys. So wat was my problem? That was obviously some fuss made out of nothing rite? Fren B told me the ball game again. Fren A had spreaded the invitation to few more. Hey, u goon or wat? You told bf you dun wan to go rite? Bitter, I answered bf polly going lah.
flew into your heart at [8:32 AM]
Thursday, January 31, 2008
I felt like I'm sharing my bf...
flew into your heart at [11:12 PM]
Thursday, January 03, 2008
You Are the Index Finger
You are ambitious, driven, and capable.
You aren't afraid to take responsibility for your actions - or place the blame on whoever deserves it.
You are honest, free thinking, and objective. You see things in your own way - and you aren't afraid to let everyone know about it.
You get along well with: The Thumb
Stay away from: The Ring Finger
flew into your heart at [10:50 PM]
Sunday, December 30, 2007
Finally, we can bbq!! This was one of the proud experiment that we did -> Skewer with white button mushroom, pork, capsicum and pineapple. Wanted to have satay but it kinda expensive to buy from wholesale ( as they sold in bulk of 50) and too troublesome to do it ourselves, so the idea of having skewers seem so much simpler. Had tried to marinate meat with beer, pumpkin with cheese, potato with cheese... but didnt turn out too well tot... =p
Everything went fairly well except that we had a tough time trying to get the fire burning. Lesson learnt => Dun save on cheap fire starters and dun buy NTUC charcoal. We bought a cambodian brand fire starters that cost about 90cents. We used up the whole box ( 20 fire starters) and yet the fire was not burning well. No choice but got to buy a new box at ECP which cost $3! Ok, now the fire starters seem to be working. Alas! It was the charcoal this time. I suspect the charcoal was damp or sth, else it just dun turn white. No choice but got to buy charcoal and another box of fire starters. So dubz... We ended up buying 3 box of fire starters, used 80 fire starters and 7kg charcoal to get the pit burning.... And that was like 2-3 hours laters...
Guess what? This was made up of letter spelt out using sparklers. The trick was to repeat the stroke of each letter forward and backward fast, while the camera person tried to take as many shots as possible to capture the best shot. Thanks to CY, the letters had been merged to spell out Merry Xmas!
flew into your heart at [11:46 PM]
Saturday, December 22, 2007
Seriously, I dun like kid ANYMORE. Sometime they are cute, but most of the time they are nuisance.
The only topic that we can talk about now is all about them... No.. in fact, not we talking... It's mum nagging, and I just shut up and try to find something to do... Cant even watch vcd in peace ( damn laptop dunno why cannot play the vcd and so I got to use the dvd player in the living room) .
flew into your heart at [4:39 PM]
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