Yes, I understand your good intention. Yes, logically it was best to learn the right skills from the start from a trained coach.

But, it was just nice to do a sport together? Maybe I would still go and learn from a coach if I decided the investment would be worthwhile..... after a game or two with ya?

And I was never good with ball games. Whenever there was a ball game in the group, I was always been left out unintentionally because I dun have much ball sense. Obviously, if I was holding the ball, I'll pass it to someone who will catch it, rather than someone who will drop it. So I dun blame anyone. Ya dint realise because ya were good in all ball games, so ya dint realise the difficulties of me trying to catch up.

I noe ya trying to be nice to me this 2 days. And I dunno wat can ya do to make me feel better neither. Coz the " damage" was done. Time cannot reversed. Words cannot erased. The unhappiness and bitterness had already seeped in.

I always counsel other ppl. So all those positive phrases I know better. And because I kept using them on other ppl, they dun really work for me. But I know I would " recover" after tue, and in any case, there's still CYN celebration.. lots of festive mood..

Till then, I dun understand why I have to feel bitter myself. Call me devil, but I aint angel, I do hope it rains on tuesday.